So what has helped me? Slowing down, even though in the beginning that felt like pure torture. Feeling how I feel (I still want to run away at times of overwhelming emotions). Learning Qigong and Meditation - practices that slow you down, encourage you to notice how you are feeling and what is going on within you. I have supported myself with many different alternative therapies and still do (Reiki, Energy Healing, Theta Healing, Kinesiology, NLP, Healing Meditations, Medical

I have found that in order to move from FORCING myself and my body - which is exhausting - to be in the flow of life - where I want to be; I had to do the very thing that I had been running from all along - I had to face how I was feeling! I had to feel the feelings that were so uncomfortable INSIDE me, that propelled me to run and keep running. When you are so used to pushing thoughts and feelings down, not listening to them, ignoring them, all the while telling yourself tha

This idea is something very dear to my heart. When I am anxious or in a heightened state (e.g. panic attack, etc.) it is impossible for me to flow with anything. Unless you think of the type of frenetic energy of a Tsunami. But certainly not my life and the world around me. If anything, life slams me – slams me in the forehead, chest and solar plexus! When I am in this state it is like I am on a perpetually moving travelator that is getting faster and faster. My body is ‘stuc